Posts Tagged “life”
Remembering Lyrics with Gothy Associations
In which I have the most obscure, least important problem, and it's driving me crazy.
Humilety
I’ve got this thing where I hate being wrong. Makes me feel very icky inside.
Pew, Pew, Pew
Read through 3 John this evening, then played some Modern Warfare 2 online. As the Scripture was settling in my mind, I saw that my brother-in-law was online. We joined up and promptly started shooting at each other.
Last time, on …delerium
Much has happened since the last post. Oh, so much. The honeymoon, by the way, was great.
Burden of Proof
In front of the courthouse in downtown Sacramento is a sculpture. A fountain. The chaotic, curving shapes remind me of nothing so much as a series of distorted antlers, flowing from one to another. There is a single break in the jagged ring, one small gap where the pieces don’t quite come together.
Jubilee
I remember telling Ashley. On and around New Year’s, I get a sense of what the year to come will be like. Strangely, it’s been pretty accurate over the past few years. A handful of minutes into this year, I remember telling Ashley: this year, long-held dreams will come to pass.
Longsuffering
If God weren’t as patient as He is, I’d be so screwed.
Not So Hopeless
A little over five years ago, this is what I was thinking:
Bicentennial
This is my 200th …delerium post. It'll be a short one.
Open Book
[tonight, an excerpt from this evening’s journal entry. a couple items have been redacted for privacy.
Official
It’s a room of adequate size, with a single window looking out on the hill behind the church. Until this afternoon, it was full of stacks of chairs. The carpet is thick and gray, the walls white and covered with taped-up Sunday School posters. The desk in the picture is a very recent addition, scavaged hastily from another room.
Counterproductivity
I'm not sure who ever thought procrastination was a good idea. Certainly hasn't done me any good yet.
Chill.
Fridays are my days of least discipline, sometimes intentionally, sometimes not.
Pathos
A titan, curled in on himself.
Downturn
I think there may be a bit if a backhanded upside to our current economic situation.
Keyed Up
Ack! Missed a post. I’ll double up today. Storytime.
Yesterday, I found myself getting very nervous, quite stressed out. There was something on my mind that would have made me anxious anyway, but in the process of trying to calm myself down, I realized something.
Plot Twists
These days, I consistently feel a little shock of panic when I see the date. Time is always moving forward a little too fast. I think I would be less fearful if I had better time management skills.
A New Twist on an Old Favorite
Some of you hypothetical readers may have guessed my intent by now. I plan to write a post on this blog every day for Lent, Sundays excluded. But you’re supposed to give something up, right? Really, I’m giving up my excuses not to write.
I Don't Remember Asking
I’ve observed that we Americans are connoisseurs of everything. I’ve actually had conversations with people about which restaurant’s soda fountain has the best mix of syrup and water. On a couple occasions. With different people.
Whippersnapper
Sometimes, I feel old for 25.
Changeover
Today is a tangle of different responsiilities. It’s my last day in Human Resources, and it’s payday, and there are checks to hand out. One of many responsibilities that will no longer be mine in a scant few hours. Who will handle them is, in many cases, a large hovering question mark.
Gaining Light
A beautiful start to the day. Doesn't hurt that it's Friday.
Someone
I’ve got this girl running through my head. I don’t know if she exists. I’ve met some that I thought were her, some that still might be, but then again, might not. Whether or not she’s real, I’m impatient to meet her. If that sounds problematic, it is.
The Week Begins
Part of my usual walk from my blocks-distant parking spot to Chocolate Fish before work. At the coffee shop, I read the Bible and journal. During the walk in, I pray. Took a bit of my own advice today and was more deliberate in my prayers; more careful to worship along with my requests and troubles.
Multimedia message
I'm gonna attempt an actual blog post from my phone. Here goes.
Test Run
A tattoo idea i had a while back. Airbrushed on at Apple Hill.
Dusk at Town and Country
I’m contemplating going to Jakarta, Indonesia over Christmas on a mission trip. Just met with some people at the Starbucks here to discuss details, possibilities. My mind is churning. It’s nice to turn the corner and see something so beautiful. I’m contemplating a couple things right now that seem like sheer stupidity on the surface. Unless they’re not.
The new puppy
Aww. Houdini the girl.
Regime Change
There’s been a slow revolution in my thinking. Not in the sense of a slow turning that ends up right where you started; I mean the Che Guevara sense. Revoluçion.
Cheering section
A little personal insight: I have very low expectations of myself.
God sighting, 12.19.2006
At the Jplus Architects Christmas party, I got $150 cash in a gift exchange. A fifty dollar bill, and a hundred dollar bill. I assumed God was giving me some extra money to cover expenses.
Behold!
What? A post? How is that possible?
For Once I Have Excuse For Not Posting
For once, I have an excuse for not posting recently. Ironically enough, that reason is also a good occasion for a blog post. And thus, once again, I’m left without a defense.
You Keep Laughing At Me She Said
“You keep laughing at me,” she said, because I did. She was chuckling herself.
Im Back
I’m back.
Dan Pointed Out To Me How Long Its
Dan pointed out to me how long it’s been since I last posted something here. Sorry. Didn’t feel like that long. In any case, there’s news to report.
Life Update Plans Had Been Formed To 1
Life update:
We Pillage We Plunder We Rifle And
We pillage, we plunder, we rifle and loot.
Drink up me ‘earties, Yo Ho!
We kidnap and ravage and don’t give a hoot.
Drink up me ‘earties, Yo Ho!
Ive Had Man Shout At Me Because I Made
I’ve had a man shout at me because I made his lox and bagels closed-face, not open-face. Same ingredients, mind you, but different presentation. He literally slammed his plate down on the counter and stormed out of the bagel shop.
Last Mission Of Starcraft Is
The last mission of Starcraft is preposterously hard. I feel like if I beat it, I’ll become some sort of superbeing. Like I’ll graduate to a new level of tactical mastery. The secrets of the Xel’naga will be opened to me. Every last one of the outlying colonies will be brought in line. I’ll command the Zerg swarms with a thought, and the galaxy will fall before my onslaught.
This Is Brian Coming To You Live From
This is Brian, coming to you live from soggy Penn Valley, California. For those of you who missed the news, I’ve moved up here with my Dad. Cheaper, and I get to spend more time with Dad. Bonus. I’ll be down in Sacramento on weekends, to see people and go to church.
So
So.
Today Was Pretty Uneventful
Today was pretty uneventful. Caught up, pretty much, with the work I’m doing for Dad, drafting a medical office building. Read the story of David’s adultery with Bathsheba, and its consequences. And turned 21.
Life As I Know It Is Simply Not Same
Life as I know it is simply not the same as it was at the beginning of June.
Killswitch Engage Is Absolutely
Killswitch Engage is an absolutely amazing band. Inspirational lyrics presented in hardcore style — screamed over hammering guitars. A thing of beauty to be sure. I’ve just picked up their The End of Heartache. Just what I needed.
Its Been Week Here At My New House
It’s been a week here at my new house. It’s taken an effort to refer to “my Mom’s house” as such, and the room full of my stuff here in Carolyn’s house as mine. Since Dad’s been busy, I’ve been on an extended vacation since I quit working at Corti Brothers. Still trying to find the balance between spending time with Carolyn and making a general nuisance of myself. Just too tempting to make my way across the house to a friend’s place when it’s right there. May take a little time to get the dynamic just right, but things are going smoothly enough. I’m very grateful.
Anyone Trying To Call Me Would Do Well
Anyone trying to call me would do well to call Carolyn’s house, since that’s where I live now. Moved yesterday. Anyone who needs the number should e-mail me.
You Have Heard That Law Of Moses Says
You have heard that the law of Moses says, “Do not murder. If you commit murder, you are subject to judgment.” But I say, if you are angry with someone, you are subject to judgment! If you call someone an idiot, you are in danger of being brought before the high council. And if you curse someone, you are in danger of the fires of hell. -Matthew 5:21
Lenny Made Very Interesting Comment
Lenny made a very interesting comment this evening. He remarked that it seemed like I’d been getting my way this past week. Cody came to church with me, and “Carolyn promised to be nice to people.” I had, he said, been getting what I wanted.
Beware O Lord Of Jealousy
“Beware, O lord, of jealousy. It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock the meat it feeds on.”
Twenty Four Oceans Twenty Four Skies
Twenty-four oceans, twenty-four skies,
And Now Bit Of Melancholy In Form Of
(and now, a bit of melancholy in the form of prose poetry.)
This Week
This week… what can I say? If I don’t stay motivated this week, there will be problems.
Im Really Thankful That God Has Put
I’m really thankful that God has put into my life the people that He has. Just thinking about how different things could be… for example, the two girls I’ve dated in the past both broke up with me under rather unfortunate circumstances. Today, they are both cherished friends. It’s not just that we don’t hate each other. I love them, and they love me. I can confidently say that. Some friends of mine can’t even look at their ex-girlfriends without clenching their teeth.
No Youre Not Hallucinating
No, you’re not hallucinating. I have actually updated my blog. I’ll give you a second to recover from the shock.
Anyone Who Thinks Ive Been Slacking
Anyone who thinks I’ve been slacking off on blog updates would do well to check my Guestbook. I’ve changed it so that the newest posts display last, so that the EPIC DEBATE therein is easier to read.
Blog Post
…made it to the 15th. Sunday. The Sabbath day. That would be a good excuse not to have done it, but I’m done with excuses.
Every So Often I Remember That Some
Every so often, I remember that some people think I’m a writer. Every so often, I think of myself as a writer. This is ridiculous, since I rarely write much of anything. The intermittent nature of the updates to this blog are evidence of that. I can hardly explain the frustration of being a writer who has trouble actually getting things down on paper. The main frustration, I think, is that my lack of output is no one’s fault but my own.
Emotions Are Funny Thing
Emotions are a funny thing… well, less funny and more infuriating.
Its Tough Being Stranded
It’s tough, being stranded. See, my car isn’t working just now, because the radiator is apparently supposed to hold water and not dribble it on the road. And today, due to my tendency to put things down in random locations and forget them, my wallet and keys are across town. This makes it harder to open the lock securing my bike, and get to work. As soon as I discovered my situation, I called into work to let them know I was stranded, and set to work finding a bus route to get to my friend’s house, where my keys and wallet lay happily on the floor. The route was plotted and I was almost ready to leave when I realized I had no money for bus fare and promptly slapped myself on the forehead. After a few minutes, I called another compatriot of mine, who agreed to give me a ride when he had a chance. Thus began the waiting game.